Gayatri Mantra - Invocation of the Mother Goddess

Recently I have taken to chanting the Gayatri mantra described as the supreme of all mantras. The Gayatri mantra to me feels like a warm embrace of the mother goddess holding her child in her arms. It soothes, comforts and nurtures my being. It is a heart felt prayer, adoration and invitation to the divine mother to come and nurture our souls with the sweetness of her eternal love.


Om Bhur bhuvah svah
Tat savitur varenyam
Bhargo Devasya dheemahi
Dheeyo yonah prachodayaat

Oh Creator of the Universe!
We meditate upon thy supreme splendor.
May thy radiant power illuminate our intellects,
destroy our sins, and guide us
in the right direction!


"Just like the Sun annihilates darkness, so does the Gayatri Mantra destroy ignorance. The Gayatri Mantra invokes the power and radiance of the Sun to energize all earthly life, to destroy our sins and to reveal the Supreme Self to us. Krishna in the Bhagvad Geeta says: ' Amongst the Mantras, I am the Gayatri' "

Listen to the Gayatri Mantra

Dream Prophecy

A constellation in the sky
Depicts a military war general
Seated on a horse
With cross in hand
An ominous sign

Soon after a fiery blaze (nuke)
Rains down from the sky
Destroying countless lives
Including mine...

Ray Of Hope

Today as I contemplated on the state of my life I realized how many regrets I had and how many things I wish I had done but didn't do. I wished I was back in college taking part in all the fun activities and making new friends that I could share of my life with, I wished I had been more sensitive to the needs of the people who were in my life and who are no more, I wished I had someone special to share my life with whom I could love with all my heart and soul and above all I wished I was healed of all the pain that I carry within me and truly feel the beauty that lies dormant inside of me. I realized that the only times I really feel at peace is when I sleep. I imagine myself floating on a peaceful cloud in heaven embraced with the love of all the angels and then I drift off to a blissful sleep. As I slept in the afternoon with these thoughts floating in my head I cried myself to a peaceful slumber. When I woke up I saw the most beautiful sight that made me feel happy and blessed.
There was a ray of light shining in my bedroom through my window and lighting up my meditation altar. Another regret I have had is that my house does not get any sunlight especially in the winters leaving me feeling cold. My previous house was facing away from the sun and that was one of the reasons I had moved into this house before winters but even in my new house the sun rarely shines. Today was the first time I saw sunlight in my house perhaps due to the shift in the spring where the sun's angle changes but having been without sun for an entire winter this was a great blessing but more than that it was a sign, a ray of hope from heaven that all my dreams would one day be filled and blessed in the light of heaven. It was my special ray of hope.

Vision of a Perfect World

Have you ever wondered what a perfect world would look like? It is said that the world is of our own making and all that you see around you is exactly as you chose it to be, your family, your friends, the work that you do, the environment that you live in, the clothes that you wear etc. are all of your own making, it is the world you chose to create around you and live in, it defines who you are at the moment. We create and define the world around us moment to moment by the choices we make, either we choose from the heart and choose to view the world through the eyes of love or we choose to color the world with our fears. Imagine for a moment what your perfect world would look like to you and hold that vision in your mind to the extent that it begins to feel real, feel it in your heart as deeply as you can, let it be your heart felt prayer till the point you can feel it so deeply that there is no shadow of doubt left in your heart that it must be so….it will then come to be. As within so without.

Here is how I envision a perfect world…….

People would look upon each other as brothers and sisters and there would be no differentiation based on race or color. The world would be a global family with people helping each other where help is needed instead of intentionally turning a blind eye to each others suffering. There would be no mention of violence or of hurting each other but people would rejoice instead in helping each other heal and find joy in loving one another without judgment or expectations. Every face you see would reflect the picture of innocence and would have an angelic smile dancing on the corner of the lips as if waiting for an opportunity to release all the joy that is contained within. People would laugh in joy without a care in the world and lift up their voices in praise of the holy one who brings joy to their hearts and who is now known to be the nearest and dearest to all hearts when once he was hidden under veils of darkness.

Children would be treated with tender love and care and education would be geared towards their wholesome upbringing in a world that respects and nurtures their tender hearts and helps them grow up in an environment that lets them fulfill their true potentials and become upstanding citizens of society giving back to it according to their capacity.

Men and women would see each other as gods and goddesses and sex would not be considered dirty and bad but would be a mutually satisfying exchange of divine love that is pure and unsullied and free of lust.

Animals would not be killed and slaughtered for their flesh but rather honored for the spiritual potential that is embodied in them and allowed to live according to their capacity as dictated by natural laws.

There would be no system of money but rather a system based on 'service worthiness' where each man is honored according to his potential to serve society and every man would be given equal opportunity to learn skills according to his capacity and thereby increase his 'service worthiness' in society. Thus a person wishing to be an artist would be able to learn art and share his artistic talents with society. As one evolves into being of more service to society he would move up to higher and higher authorities of power in a system of government where people are chosen according to their wisdom and capacity to serve others but most importantly according to their capacity to serve spirit’s will as opposed to one's own.

There would be no one lacking in food and a roof above their heads as everything would be shared in equal measure and greed would be unheard of. People would do what they enjoyed and work would be fulfilling and rewarding and helping one to achieve their true potential thus enabling them to move ahead on their journey of life.

Natural beauty would abound and cities would harmoniously blend with nature. Spring would never end and sun would always shine. People would not feel tired as they would derive their energy from natural surroundings which uplift the energy field of people instead of depleting it. One would just need to take a stroll in a lush green park engineered to grow a blend of flowers and herbs that would naturally heal and uplift the human energy field leaving one feeling fully rejuvenated and in tune with nature.

Medicine would be geared towards healing not only the body but also the mind and spirit having finally discovered the deep interconnection between the three. A variety of healing tools would be available to achieve the same e.g. using crystals for tuning the energy field, healing through sound and light, and other methods of holistic healing would be the norm.

Peace would prevail among nations and there would be no artificial boundaries to separate people based upon their race and culture. Nations would share and support each other and learn from each others strengths and respect each others differences.

Communication would be intuitive, empathic and telepathic. People would use all their senses to communicate thus there would be little need for talk but people would be able to read each others hearts and minds like an open book as nothing would be hidden any more nor would there be any need to hide your thoughts and feelings. Communication would be heart centered and not ego centered thus resulting in a mutually satisfying and selfless form of communication.

Above all love would be the governing factor in all individual and collective actions thus ensuring the survival and evolution of the human race.

Love for all and all for love.

Good and Evil

As I was reading the book 'Left to Tell' a lot of things became clear to me. I felt Immaculee's inner anguish tearing at her. There was a part of her that wanted to wreak revenge on her parents killers but there was another part that told her that this was not the 'right' thing to ask for as it would take her further away from God. In the end she overcame her own 'demons' and chose to listen to her 'angels' instead. The struggle she went through is common to all. This is the great battle between the light and the dark, the
demons and the angels, God and Satan. We all have the 'good' and the 'bad' sides to us and we struggle with it daily. When we choose to empower the bad side we feel miserable and disconnected from God. It is not God who has forsaken us but our own bad choices that have
caused us to feel separate from God. God gave us free will to live and learn and we are free to choose good or bad. In the end it is not God who judges but we are our own judge and jury. God does not see good or bad. Good or bad only exists in duality and separation. God is wholly
good and evil does not exist where God is. Then the question arises where did evil spring from. The answer is just as simple. Evil came into existence where God was not and where God was not was when we chose to believe in an existence that was separate from God and
created an identity that was separate from God. We are the drops in the ocean of God not realizing that we are part of the ocean and dreaming that we are a small puny drop all alone unto ourselves. Thus do we cut ourselves off from the vast strength of the ocean. We exist in a self created delusion. In this delusion of separation arises the possibility of good and evil since that is the very nature of duality. If we knew oneness the possibility of evil would not exist because in oneness there can be no evil to perpetuate as being evil requires the existence of another to whom the effect can be perpetuated. Love can know no evil simply because love unifies and evil separates. Hence evil is a creation of the delusion of man. Once the duality is overcome within one self through the process of self purification then the evil vanishes along with it. This is the journey that all must undertake. No one shall know God unless one sees and knows no evil. Such a one is free of all fears and sees all with an equal eye knowing all to be children of God and loving all equally.

This is exactly the path Imaculee chose to follow when she forgave the killers of her family and looked beyond the evil they had perpetuated and saw that they were indeed children of God who had gone deep into the delusion of separation. She understood the evil that they had brought upon themselves and knew that their souls had a long journey ahead of them to come back into oneness. She saw through the eyes of God and saw only the purity of their souls that was still buried deep within them hidden from view by the layers of evil that they had perpetuated.

God only sees the truth and the truth is that all are his children and all our wholly good. Only in separation they have deluded themselves into believing otherwise.

The correct way to view people who have perpetuated evil is with compassion for only God knows the untold sufferings that they must endure to be able to merge back with God again who is their only source of happiness and who will never forsake them even though they have forsaken him.

May God bless Rwanda and all the people therein that one day they may learn to forgive each other and may their hearts be cleansed of hatred and filled instead with the understanding of God that allows one to heal and love and become whole again.

Left to Tell

I just finished reading this beautiful book that I wanted to share with everyone. It is the story of a Rwandan genocide survivor Immaculee Ilibagiza who survived the worst genocide in human history where 800,000 rwandans were massacred in an ethnic 'cleansing' in a span of 100 days just because they happened to be from a tribe called the 'Tutsi'. Immaculee who happened to be a Tutsi was hunted down to be killed but she hid herself in a 4ft x 3ft bathroom with 7 other women for a period of 91 days.

In the bathroom she battled with her worst fears and in the midst of her darkness she found the light of God. This is her story of her survival and the lessons of unconditional love and forgiveness that she learnt through it to the extent that when she finally met the killers of her family she was able to forgive them. It is a truly beautiful and moving autobiography. It will move you to tears and at the same time make you weep in joy at the love that God has for all of us and its power to heal and forgive even in the midst of great suffering. It is a timeless story of the strength of the human spirit to rise above all challenges and tap into the deep reservoir of strength within. The story of Immaculee Ilibagiza and her love and strength to overcome all odds will become a part of you by the time you finish this book.

"Forgiveness is a favor to yourself, not a favor to the person you are forgiving. You free your heart to love again. The only way to fight the evil is to love each other."
~ Immaculee Ilibagiza

Links:
http://www.lefttotell.com/
http://www.diaryofimmaculee.com/
http://www.drwaynedyer.com/articles/ltt.php
http://www.pagesmagazine.com/current/infocus.htm
http://www.rferl.org/featuresarticle/2004/04/7925b0b7-82f8-4026-a0bb-db843d089360.html

Tomorrow is another new day...

Everyday I seem to rot away
In the clutches of my fear
The same old stuff tossed about
Thrown again in a different gear

Everyday the same old struggle
Everyday the same old pain
Oh when will this accursed dark night end!
My heart aches for a gentler refrain

How I long for a gentle touch
Someone to ease this numbing ache
Yet the world blind to my sorrow
Goes on unfeeling for my sake

Someone I wish would hold my hand today
Someone to lead me through these alleys dark
That I may not stumble and fall
And loose whats left of my heavenly spark

Oh lord I pray with all my heart
Grant me the strength that I may endure
All these tests that come my way
So one day I may be like thee pure

Promise me thy love in return
For all the painful seeds I sow
That one day they may blossom true
And into a fruit filled tree grow

With this hope in my heart
It goes on beating come what may
After all like I always say
Tomorrow is another new day....

Ann with an e of Green Gables

Today I watched a movie that opens up your mind to the possibilities of imagination. It is a story about Anne, an orphaned child, who possesses a very vivid imagination and shows no restraint in expressing it via the medium of her tongue. Her world is made up of beautiful and perfect things. She sees beauty and charm in everything and wants everything around her to be beautiful and charming. She wants flashy dresses with puffy sleeves, she wants a 'bosom' friend to whom she can bare her all and one who will love her till the 'sun and moon shall endure', she wants green hills and forests and orchards with flowers and lakes that shine, she wants her hair to be golden and her name spelled elegantly Ann with an e. Whenever she finds herself in despair or a difficult situation she lets her imagination take wings and all is well again. Her world is made up of beautiful dreams and whoever comes into her world becomes a part of it.

That’s exactly how I felt when I watched this sweet and charming movie. Her dreams became a part of me. I could identify with her visions of charm and beauty and everything being perfectly divine. It seems to me that we all have a desire within us to have all things beautiful and to be all things beautiful. This is because it is the truth of us and in truth we are all that we envision ourselves to be and much more that we perhaps can not imagine because of the limits that bind our imagination. I believe that one day we will all become that which we truly desire to be....the perfect expression of the divine in all of its beauty and grandeur. All beautiful poems are an expression to capture this beauty and divinity that lies deep within us though words by their very nature are a very limited means of expression. Only in the depths of the heart can this beauty be truly experienced in all its fullness and only through the medium of the heart can it be truly expressed in all its loveliness. I know in my heart that one day all Anne’s dreams and all of our dreams will come true and we will truly rejoice in the beauty of each other.

...I went looking for my ideals outside of myself,

I discovered it's not what the world holds for you,

Its what you bring to it. The dreams dearest to my

heart are right here....

Anne


Link to the book on which the movie was based..
http://www.classicreader.com/booktoc.php/sid.1/bookid.78

Reiki

If I was to mention the single most important event in my life it would be the day I was initiated into Reiki.

I first came to know about Reiki when my father gave me a book titled the 'Joy of Reiki' written by two Reiki masters Renoo and Nalin Nirula. It must be mentioned that my father is not a very spiritual man by nature and for him to give me a book which was primarily spiritual in nature was highly unsual. To this date I have not yet asked him where he got the book from. It never occurred to me at that point in time to ask him that question. It just happened so naturally
that I did not question the process. Now 6 years past when I look back I know that it was meant to be.

At that point in my life I had just finished my undergraduate studies and was preparing to come to the US for higher studies. My undergraute years were not very happy times and I was lacking much in life and looking for some meaning to what lay ahead of me. When I read the book it offered me much hope and was like ray of sunshine in my otherwise dreary outlook towards life. The positive message of Reiki and its ability to heal and bring joy to your life touched me deeply. I spent much time researching Reiki on the internet and becoming familiar with it.

Reiki is composed of two words 'Rei' and 'Ki'. 'Rei' means Universal Spirit and 'Ki' means life force energy. Reiki means Universal Life Force energy. This is the energy that permeates all living things. It is called by different names in different cultures, Chi in China, Qi in Japanese, Prana in Hinduism and western science recognizes it as the biomagnetic field that surrounds every living thing. Reiki in essence is a highly refined form of spiritual energy that is highly conducive to spiritual growth. Its primary purpose is to bring about a transformation in the individual's conciousness and bring about a spiritual awareness. Most people however view and percieve it as a healing energy as it has healing properties to heal the body, mind and spirit. This however in my opinion is secondary to its intended purpose. Spiritual healing is a natural by product of its primary function which is to refine the individuals concicouness through spiritual cleansing. Once you are attuned to Reiki by a master you can then channel this energy through your hands and use it for your own healing or for the benefit of others. During the attunement the master opens up your own energy channels (energy centers or chakras) in the body and tunes you into the higher refined frequencies of Reiki thus making you a receiver for Reiki. Traditional Reiki has 3 different levels. The Reiki practitioner moves on from one level to the next after he has mastered the previous level. Each level opens the practitioners capacity to receive more Reiki. This is similar to wiring your house for electricity. Reiki I level is like being wired to 110V, the second to 220V and the III has no limits. At the masters level your capacity to channel Reiki would ideally be unlimited. It is important to note however that it is up to each individual to enchance his own capacity to receive Reiki through practice and inner work. Only when one has mastered each level should one progress to the next else the 'wiring' will be incomplete. I am currently at the II level.

Coming back to my story. After I learned about Reiki I had an intense desire to be attuned to it. There was a stumbling block however and that was the price of getting a Reiki attunement. Reiki masters usually charge high prices for the attunement and I was afraid of asking my father for that amount of money. I never did summon up enough courage to ask my father for the money needed to get an attunement. I however kept up my research on Reiki and talked to people on the internet who were Reiki practitioners. My desire to experience Reiki grew in leaps and bounds as I gained more knowledge about it. Six months passed and we relocated to a new place. My father being in the military meant that we would tend to move often. One day my father received a circular in the mail that a Reiki master, who was a retired Major General, would be coming to our area and would be conducting a Reiki seminar especially for the army families. The fees that he had asked for was very affordable too. Even at that point I knew this was a prayer answered. This drove home to me two very important lessons.

1) When something is desired with a sincere and pure heart it will always be fulfilled.
2)The master appears when the student is ready.

Needless to say I attended the seminar and the day I received my Reiki attunement was the day my whole life changed. The attunement itself was a very profound process for me. During the attunement I felt like a huge burden had been lifted off of me and I felt truly happy and
joyful to be alive for the first time in my life. I felt connected to people and things around me. It made me realize there was much inside of me that I had not yet discovered. That was the day in March of 2000 that I awakened from a deep slumber and started a journey that continues to this day. Along the way I have grown to love and cherish Reiki and share it with anyone who so desires it. Reiki has helped me heal on all levels, physical, emotional and mental. I have found Reiki to be wonderful for inducing deep relaxation and 99% of the people to whom I give a Reiki session tend to fall asleep after reaching a state of deep relaxation. I have also found Reiki to be wonderful with pain of all kinds. Reiki is also great for inducing a meditative state. The uses of Reiki are truly endless. Reiki gives a jumpstart to everything. It certainly jumpstarted my life and I will be forever grateful for this beautiful and blessed gift of spirit that is given to all who choose to accept it.

A Blessing

I found this really wonderful Course in Miracles study group. It is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. The people there are wonderful and even better its a Reiki group and I think everyone there is a Reiki channel. What more could a Reiki bug like me ask for! I really enjoyed the meeting yesterday and look forward to many more! I am looking forward to getting to know everyone there better especially John as I can really identify with him a lot. Even before he speaks on a topic I know exactly what he is going to say and what he is thinking. We seem to be on the same wavelength. I can see myself like him in a couple of years. Matured with wisdom and love. I am thankful for this blessing.

First Love

I remember the first girl I ever fell heads over heels in love with. I was 6 years old then and had just moved to a new neighbourhood. I was a very shy kid and had a hard time making friends. Usually my sister or my mother would take me to a playground or someplace where I could make friends. On this occasion it happened to be my sister to whom this duty fell. My sister was the outgoing type and made friends easily. Soon after moving to the neighbourhood she already knew most of the kids that lived there. One evening she took me by the hand to meet her new friends.
When we reached all the kids were busy playing with a ball in a huge circle. The intent of the game was to throw the ball from one person to another and whoever the ball came to had to state his or her name aloud. It was kind of a getting to know you game since most of the kids there were new.

We joined the circle and the game went on. After a while it became apparent to me that no one was interested in throwing me the ball perhaps because they felt I was too young. I felt sad and left out. Soon after the ball went to a little girl who was my about my age. She was dark skinned, had short hair and a cute smile. She seemed very warm and friendly. She said her name was Lily. As she caught the ball she looked at me and smiled and I knew she wanted to throw the ball to me which she did. At that very moment I fell in love with her. Lily was a vivacious and lively girl and her outgoing personality appealed to me. She was also a little flirt and would love to flirt with us boys. This would often cause a lot of jealousy among us. I remember one time when a boy called Mickey came into the picture. Mickey was very good at dancing and Lily took a great deal of interest in him. In her flirtatious way she would proclaim that she would marry only Mickey one day. That really peeved me no end and jealousy raged thorugh my tiny being. I tried hard to learn to dance like Mickey but gave up on that as I wasn't very good at it. However I tried other ways to make her notice me. I was very good at sports and used to play
hockey and football both of which I was very good at. Lily would often sit near the playground and watch us play and applaud at our games. Whenever she would be nearby I would do my best to impress her. At one such occasion I fought off 5 defenders on the field and took the hockey ball single handedly and ferociously towards the goal and ended up scoring. I looked at Lily afterwards and it seemed she had hardly noticed but was busy talking to a friend. I was happy nonetheless at my clever goal.

I never did get around to getting over my shyness and getting close enough to Lily to be good friends with her. She remains a beautiful memory in my heart.

An Amazing Reading

I am currently reading a book called 'Mysterious Stranger' by David Blaine. David Blaine is a man who calls himself a street magician. However a lot of his magic is real with no fancy props and comes straight from the heart. It was clear to me when I watched videos of him performing his street magic that David has learnt to master his mind and can do amazing things with it. I admire his talent as a magician and a human being.
One of the sections in Davids book is titled 'A Reading' in which he does a small reading for the reader. Here is the reading exactly as it is printed in my book.



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A READING

We went to extraordinary lengths for this book. We actually convinced the publisher to print a number of variations, knowing that greatly diverse people would be reading it. It's not a chance that you're reading this particular version.
    You many know me, but I know you.
    You're a very sensitive type of person.
    When you were younger, you were different from the others around you. You were observant. You'd silently take in a situation and notice things about the people the people in your presence. your intuition is strong.
    You are very caring and honest, sometimes even too much so , but you have great difficulty in letting anybody get to know you. When you finally do let somebody in, you keep him or her close to you for a long time. In fact, theres someone close to you that you're really worried about right now. but the best thing to do is to keep being a positive force in that person's life.
    Sometimes you're overly analytic, but it's better to try to live spontaneously.
    You have a scar on your left knee.
    Now before you begin to think that I'm psychic and can look into the depths of your soul, and do it through this book, let me explain how I was just able to tell you so much about yourself."

[Unquote]


After this he goes on to explain the concepts of how he developed this reading through a technique called 'Cold' reading which is an art of generalization.
What really amazed me however was the accuracy of the reading. Each part of the reading described me in perfect detail and what left me agape was the scar on the left knee line which just so also happens to be true. It left me wondering whether one can really know or plan the future so much in advance as to actually tailor make a reading for a future reader. I know the universe works in complete harmony and I believe in synchronistic events. I have had such events happen to me before and it is not uncommon for me to pick up a book or read something in a magazine that contains an answer to a question that I have been sincerely seeking. The universe does respond to your every genuine need. However the answers only come when the seeker is truly ready to grasp the truth of it. I would like to believe this reading was meant for me and it did help me understand a part of me I wasn't aware of.

"Sometimes you're overly analytic, but it's better to try to live spontaneously."

I do have a very analytical mind that always tries to reason out and understand things. This leaves little room for spontaniety. This is something I definitely needed to bring into focus. I thank you David for this beautiful reading and for all the work that you do to inspire and uplift us.
God Bless.

Link to some of David Blaines street magic videos http://www.metacafe.com/tags/david_blaine

The Scar

When I was about 7 years old, I and a group of friends would go in the evenings or whenever we found the time to do so to a place that we nick named the 'Secret Place'. It was so titled because we had discovered this place while exploring the territory near which we lived and we made a vow to never tell anyone about it. Thus we would sneak out to this place when no one was looking and even though many were curious about this 'Secret Place' that we went to we were adamant on keeping it to ourselves.This place was in a small jungle like setting not far from the colony where we lived. In that place there was a big banyan tree and nearby a gentle stream would flow. The banyan tree had many roots on which we would love to swing and play. We would cling on to the longer roots and swing from one end of the stream to another. Sometimes we would just climb the tree and play tag on it or perhaps race paper boats when the flow of the stream was strong. We would tell each other many stories there borne out of our little imaginative and wild minds! Stories of heroes like Zorro the masked avenger or Spiderman or giant robots that we saw in the cartoons would come to life in that little jungle. There was nothing there to stop our creative imaginations. Preposterous though the stories were we would sometimes even come to believe that they might have been true. How easy it was to believe back then when our minds were not so conditioned.
I remember vaguely the day our eyes rested upon this root that descended to the ground from a high branch. It held promise of a exhilirating and lengthy ride. A problem soon arose however when we came to realize that it was too high up above the ground that we stood upon. Not ones to give up easily we looked for other alternatives to catch that promised ride. There was a big slab made of concrete nearby which was a leftover of some construction project that was to be initiated sometime in the future. To us it was a symbol of destruction as it threatened to reveal our secret place to the world and worse yet eradicate it forever. However we were not much concerned at the future prospects being creatures of the moment and in the moment that slab offered much hope. It was not long before I climbed onto the 4-5 feet high slab to take the leap and try and catch the promised root. As I stood upon that slab I felt a flicker of hesitation go through me on the prospect of this dangerous stunt. It was easy to cut yourself on the jagged edges of the root not to mention what would happen if one fell to the hard stoney ground. However I was not one to back out especially when pulling dangerous stunts like this. It was not something new to me. I had so many cuts and bruises that my mother would call me the wounded soldier. I wish now that I had listened more to my intution. I did take that leap and I had barely managed to clasp the root when my tiny hands slipped and I fell to a waiting rock below which struck me on myleft leg and gave me a mighty cut. With tears in my eyes I rushed back home to the arms of my mother. Soon I was in the doctors chambers and since the cut was deep the doctor proposed stitching it up. The very prospect however frightened me no end and every time he would try to get near the cut I would break out in a stream of tears. Not long after the doctor and my parents gave up on me and resorted to bandaging it and hoping it would close by itself with time.

It has been many years now and I still retain that scar from that incident. It is a poignant reminder to me of life's recurring mishaps when one fails to listen to the inner guidance within. Had I listened then to my intution I would have saved my self a lot of pain. These rash decisiosn however continued into my adult life causing me much misery until I finally learnt to heed that voice within. Now I 'feel'within before making any such decisions borne out of a momentary need or desire to please the dictates of a vagrant mind. A painful lesson learnt but one that will stay on with me forever.

Wisdom

*whew* that was a long message. I am sometimes amazed at the wisdom that pours through me. Its as if I become an instrument of a higher power to work through me. This happens when I write poetry or feel like writing a message that I feel might help others. This expression of my self in writing is a great blessing to me at this point in time. It helps me greatly in taking my mind of painful matters that still torture my soul and somehow it provides me with the strength to go on. I am excited to have embarked on this journey of expression through the medium of this blog. I feel this to be my playground to channel my creative talents and bring them into focus. May this become a sacred ground of healing for my soul and for all those who may wish to partake of this expression of my self.

Who am I?

Who am I?

A question when truthfully answered will reveal all of lifes mysteries to the one who has asked in innocence and sought in sincerity.

Paradoxically enough to know this elusive 'I' is to erase the very identity that formulates this 'I' ness. As long as there is an 'I' means there is a personality that goes with it. 'I' has been associated with a state of being where one is a separate entity. An individual personality can only exist if it feels itself separate or different from another. As soon as the separateness vanishes there can be no more 'I' since there can be no 'other'. All is then One whole... that which is absolute unity and absolute love...that which we call God.

The answer then to the question is simply that Iam God. However what keeps us from realizing this is the separateness that we feel because of our identification with a limited personality. A personality is simply a sum of all the past experiences accrued over many lifetimes in the journey of a soul. Based on its experiences the personality acquires a set of beliefs and habits which forms the basis for its reality. Thus it begins to define its life based on its past conditionings in which it then remains trapped till the time it looks past the clouds of the past and uncovers the truth. The truth then sets it free to create a reality in which all things are possible since in the realm of truth there is complete freedom to create what you wish free of any limitations what so ever. This state of being is generally called paradise.

It is alluded to in most religions that there exists such a paradise and many have been the stories that tell of such a wonderful existence. It is a place that people believe can only be reached after death. This though true is not the complete truth. Death is a transition into another realm which resonates at the state of your own beingness. So in essence there are as many shades of heaven as there are souls on this planet. Most people will reach one of these heavens that resonates with their own way of being and supports and nurtures it. Since most people are on the whole good and strive to do good it but follows that most will reach what they might deem to be heaven. It also follows that all those who have done more harm then good will reach a place that might seem to them to be hell. However it is a reality made entirely by them and supports their beingness. Heaven and hell thus are of our own making. However since God is absolute unity it follows that heaven and hell must not only exist after death in another dimension of reality but must also exist in this physical dimension. Since heaven and hell is just a reflection of our state of being then the reality we choose to build will reflect that very state. Hence when we live in accord with creation and with God then we create heaven on earth and when we don't we create hell. Its easy to see that collectively as humanity we have chosen more of the latter then the former. I believe however that there will come a time when we will learn to live in accord with God and learn to create heaven on earth. It has been mentioned in many prophecies (bible revelations, hopi prophecies, nostradomus among others) that there will dawn a golden age which will bring peace on earth and all children of God will learn to live in harmony with creation. I in my heart hold this vision. May we all learn to live in peace and love each other as the children of our father/mother God. May it be so.

Happy Valentines

Happy Valentines my sweetest.

Even though I have no roses to offer
And even less do I have to offer of me.

Let this day not pass by
without the world knowing of our love.

So I write these few humble words as an offering.

Let them be etched for eternity to see
The love that I hold only for thee.

What is Love

Love is a song
Deep within your heart

Love is a feeling
Of never being apart

Love is a gentle breeze
At times a burning fire

Love is a paradox
It often sprouts desire

Love is our greatest need
It is our salvation

Love turned upside down
Brings instead damnation

Love is a broken heart
It reaps great sorrow

Love can never be lent
Nor can one borrow

Love are the stories
That Grandma once told

Love are the sweet memories
For eternity to hold

Love is the tough teacher
That will beat you dry

Love is the mother
That suckles you when you cry

Love is like a fountain
It needs to be set free

Love is like a river
Merging with the sea

Love is a circle
No beginning no end

Love is the tears
When two hearts mend

Love is fire
When hearts ignite

Love is sex
When souls unite

Love is humor
Laughter and jest

Love is simply God
In human manifest

Oh sweet God! Dear God!

Oh God Sweet God!
How dear art thou!
Yet no one understands thy sweetness
Blinded by ignorance we stumble along
But oh dear God you carry us through
In your loving arms sheltered and protected
More then we can ever know
Ever by our side art thou
Lest we fall and hurt our tender hearts
All our scars do you take
and turn them into shining stars
Sweteest lord
Glory be to thee!
Dearest lord
Hallelujah !

The Prostitute

In the cold winter night I walk alone
Waiting for someone to come along
Someone who can keep me warm
Perhaps take me to a place where I belong?

The raging fire of desire
From deep within me bursts!
Oh wretched tortured soul
Can anyone quench this thirst!?

No body can ever satisfy
Thy longings never end
Oh my soul imprisoned
When will thy peace descend!?

What has become oh wretched me
Life do I so despair
Trapped in thy own makings
Oh love, can one some spare

Will I ever know love to be true?
Will my heart with happiness beam?
These questions a fire within
Yet no answers forthcoming seem

Night after night I dream the same
Someone to love, someone to care
Yet once more into the cold winter night
I walk alone....

Love

"LOVE"
~Swami Rama

Dear little Violet,with thy dewy eye.
Look up and tell me truly,
When noone is nigh,
What thou art!
The violet answered with a gentle sigh,
If that is to be told when alone,
Then I must sadly own,
You will never know what am I,
For my brothers and sisters are all around
In the air and on the ground
And they are the same as I.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow......

Its a cold winter day today. Its been snowing all day yesterday and a little bit today. I however hardly feel the cold perhaps because my heart is warming up to life again...yay ! I have finally figured out what I was doing wrong with my life ! Always complaining! Always dragging myself down ! The critical mind would not let me rest in peace ! You did this
wrong, you did that wrong ...on and on like a nagging parent ! I have created a monster ! Now
however the mind will be silenced and tamed so that it supports and nurtures every part of my being. Taming the mind is the hardest thing to do ! It takes so much time and patience like teaching a new born..you have to be very patient and understanding with it. The change does not happen overnight but takes months even years to root out deep rooted conditionings. We have so many of them ! We are conditioned every day by the society we live in that gives us a set of rules and norms to live by, by the media that feeds us what they want us to see and believe, by religions that put their God above others and the list goes on. How much of the time do we really think for ourselves!? How many choices of ours are really our own? Do you buy your clothes because they have a designer label on them even though you can find ones just as good elsewhere? Do you choose your shampoo because the advertisement for it was 'cool' and you really liked the girl in the hot jeans? Do you choose to vote for that leader that the media has made you believe is more popular then the rest and who claims to make your life easier by cutting down on taxes and other lies but never gets round to them after he is elected?Life should be defined by the choices we make based on our own views formulated through our own experiences. Life is meant to be experiential. You can not define your life though other peoples experiences or choices that were pressed upon you. No one ever reached greatness writing about others views on life. Greatness comes through learning from lifes myriad experiences and gaining the wisdom that they bring. For this wisdom you must labor hard and meets lifes greatest challenges with faith and perseverance till you have ingrained the wisdom it was meant to teach you. In the end the greatest wisdom that life brings is that of unconditional love. Of discovering the love within your self and knowing that the same love lives in the hearts of all.Our greatest need is to love and be loved. If we could only understand that we would see the world with a different lens. We would see that the person who hurt us was just crying out for our love which we denied him, the egoistic person who wants to be at the center of attention is just a little child yearning to be loved inside and told that he is worthy of that love, the angry person is just trying to hide the pain he feels inside because of what you said to him that triggered the pain he was trying so desperately to hide. Through the lens of love the world takes on a different color and life becomes beautiful because you can't help but see beauty everywhere and in every heart. There are no more angry, hurtful and egoistic persons. There are only people wanting human affection and love.

Love is the basis of life. We were made to love and to be loved. Life was meant to be a labor of love...and so it is.

Jesus's Labor

Jesus was the embodiment of unconditional love. Even though his burden was 'light' he took on the burdens of many as a labor of love. Can anyone even begin to fathom the depth of his being. Many have tried over the centuries but have only ended up espousing their own agendas and what they felt Jesus as a man represented to them. Hence was born a religion of ignorance from what was meant to be a universal understanding and brotherhood of man. Jesus is not a commodity of a few but lives in the hearts of all. May God grant me such a love as was Jesus.

Labor of Love

Life is a labor of love. The only reason why we exist is that the tree of life may one day bear fruits of our labors of love. Human suffering is the highest form of labor and it grinds us in the mill of life till we get more and more refined until one day we can see ourselves as we truly are. As I undertake this journey of life I find myself terribly alone. Hence the need for a space where I can connect with others to share and grow together in this labor of love. Perhaps someone somewhere may gain from my labors and in doing so find his own labor lessened to some extent....and so it begins.